Yesterday afternoon I went to see The Grudge 2 with my bro, Hana, Rania, Kania, Fahmi, Gana, and a new KBRI girl called Lia. I luuuv horror movies! Although I screamed several times during the movie (that I had to remind myself to cover my mouth every time a freaky scene comes), I still think the first version of the movie is waaaaay more frightening than the second one. Unlike the first version, The Grudge 2 wasn't scary all the way from start to finish; the plot of this movie's too complicated and a lot of the scenes didn't make sense; some parts of the movie were boring and failed to engage the audience; and some of the ghastly creatures made me chuckle instead of making me squirm in my seat. Then after the movie, we went to Oriental Bay for ice cream (it was a great, fine day yesterday), then off to Tante Ena's house to accompany Fahmi (and sekalian lebaranan kesana). Afterwards, Fahmi had to take the girls home, so Gana, my bro, and I went for dinner at Hot Rocks in Lower Hutt.

At about 2pm today, Coconut m'a texto si je pourrais soigner Goddess, sa belle chatte, pour neuf semaines. Sure, I love Goddess til death, I haven't seen her for almost a year, and I'd luv to have her in my home again. En revanche, having her for 9 weeks is far too long.. and it would only make me remember him even more! D'un part, Goddess me manque, and I bet my ex is quite desperate in trying to find someone who's willing to give her a home while he's away getting married in Indonesia. Mais d'autre part, my house is too small for Goddess (she's gonna get bored if I keep her in all day long, and if I let her out I'm scared she won't come back), there's no ideal place to put her poop tray (and heck I can't imagine how stinky my tiny home will be if she ever poops inside!), I'd have to vacuum the house more frequently cos the couch and carpet would be covered in her fluffy white fur, and last but not least: il me semble que mon ex seulement profite de moi, car it's not like nous restons des bons amis apres que nous broke up, et il seulement me contacte quand il a besoin de quelque chose. It's like il me considere comme tempat titipan kucing doang while he's away on cloud nine getting married to some other woman whom I'm sure gonna have to face soon. Quelle sorte de gratitude me donnera-t-il quand il aura volve de Jakarta? Rien, nada, nothing. Il me dira muchas gracias, mais ce sera tout. Not to mention la tristeza que je devrais revivre, car avoir la belle chatte chez moi me rendrait seulement a penser a lui meme plus!
Considering all this, si je veux proteger mon bien-etre emotionnel, I realise that the best option would be to say no, but why oh why is it so hard to say so? Peut-etre it's cos I want Goddess, mais a meme temps carressing this lovely, lovable, innocent, snow-white kitty for 9 weeks would only remind me so much of my ex and in the end I'm gonna suffer emotionally encore une fois, which of course I'm trying to stay away from. Alors, I haven't told him yes; I've only said "maybe". I know it would mean so much to him if I'd say yes, but it's not like he'd be willing to manifest his appreciation towards me to a great extent, donc qu'est-ce que j'obtiendra en echange that would really make me glad for doing the favour? As I've mentioned before: nada, rien, niente. I'm not saying I want quelque chose materiel en echange. J'ai besoin seulement de that extra something, u know.. something that would make it all worthwhile.. something that would make up for the emotional suffering (ie. the inevitable reminiscence of him caused by the cat's mere physical presence) that I would have to go through if I agree to look after her.. quelque chose that wouldn't make me regret doing him the favour. Oh gosh I'm shedding a tear while typing this.. holy cow! what a stupid, sensitive freak I am.

Labels: Cats, Confessions, Movies