These days I don't feel like blogging, but here's what happened yesterday:

1. Went to work. Gosh it was sooo boring, but I reckon it wasn't so bad after all. Besides, there was a bit of "playtime" with the boyz when no customers were in the store. Thank God they're all nice to me, especially Jon who's such a really friendly guy from the start. Fred's real fun too and he has a great sense of humour, but unfortunately this week's his last week of work at Sony.. which means that starting from next week there probably won't be as much laughter as the past few days of work.
2. At night, my bro and Nina and I went to KBRI for the new ambassador's welcoming party. He seems like a friendly person, and rumours have it that his wife is a film producer (my friends said that Ca-Bau-Kan and Arisan were two movies that she produced). Not only that, but she also produced some of Peter Pan's video clips, and it looks like she was about to bring the famous Indonesian band to Wellington for the New Year's Eve party, but she cancelled it due to the band's split. BOO HOO!!
3. My God, there's these three new KBRI girls and they can all sing!! Especially Lia the oldest one. She has a really nice voice when she sang last night.
4. I'm glad to say that I do NOT hate my ex. I used to think that since he's about to get married, I didn't want him in my life anymore --not even as friends-- and because of that a few months ago I deliberately "deleted" him from my life (eg. from my friendster, MSN, cellphone, etc). Moreover, I dunno know why but I always get the feeling that he hates me for ignoring him and not being friendly to him. But last night when I was sitting alone (my friends were minding their own business) he suddenly sat right behind me and we talked and talked then he went off to get me a drink (haha padahal gua gk minta Oh, he even drew a cute flower on the styrofoam cup and tried to scare me off by saying that it was someone else's cup). Then we watched Lia sing and he commented on how good her voice is but then he noticed from her voice that she probably doesn't have a musical background like I do, then he complimented me and told me that he still finds my voice way better than hers , and then we talked and talked and talked again within such proximity that made several people stare at us (sheesh!!). Anyway, last night I really felt okay with him u know. It's like I've finally come to realise that I don't feel "that way" about him anymore, and that I'm finally okay with the fact that he's getting married soon. Furthermore, it's good to know that the thoughts of him hating me were mere nonsense. But most of all, last night made me feel that I do NOT want him out of my life -- I still want him to be my friend. So yeah, although he used to be the biggest jerk I've ever met, I reckon he does make a good friend.
   
5. Oh, but there IS a person that I do hate. It's not that I "hate" him, but I dislike him in such a way that makes me wanna kick his ass every time he talks to me. Last night I thought he wasn't present, but then Koko (my ex) pointed him out and said "tuh dia!" and I thought aaarrghh! See, every time there's an event at KBRI, this weird man would always ask me things like "Des, Koko mana?" (>> emang gua pikirin) or "Des, Koko kenapa gk dateng?" (>> mana gua tau!!) or "kok kamu sama Koko datengnya gk barengan?" (>> emang kenapa??). Man, I'm so sick of him asking those questions, especially when I've told him a thousand times that we're not together anymore!! It's like he doesn't wanna believe it u know?? Which is why every time I see this person, I'd always try to get as far away from him as possible, cos he'd always try to get me to talk to him about my relationship with Koko. Anyhoo, last night he asked "kok gk sama Koko? Lagi marahan ya?" (>> aduuuh ni orang, gua getok deh lama2!!). Buat yg penasaran ni orang kyk apa, dia tuh udah bapak2, tapi aneh gitu deh, trus suka ikut campur urusan gua gitu. Damn, I miss the times when Yani and I used to make fun of him 'til our stomach hurt like hell! It's mean, I know, but it's amusing!

So here's what happened today:

1. Went to work again, but this time the day flew quite fast.. and I was faced with a mean customer. He bought a handycam, but maann! He was sooo rude! He pissed me off and I could've shouted "GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK!!!" to him.
   
2. Ever since I work at Sony, there's a guy that I really get along with.. and just before I left today, he asked me out. Aww maaann! I hope this won't be a date. I mean, he's a really nice person.. but I dunno, he's not my type and I don't see him in "that" way.. and besides, he's not Muslim.. but I reckon we can still go out as friends .
3. I felt tired after work, yet I walked to Manners to visit The Rock Shop and had a browse on their piano sheetmusic collection. I didn't buy any of them, so I wanted to go home and went to the bus stop at James Smith corner. The Island Bay bus was there! But I didn't have cash with me so I walked to the ATM at Courtenay Place. I was about to walk to the furthest bus stop near Embassy Theatre afterwards, but then I realised that the bus stop in front of Nandos was a lot closer. So I went back and accidentally saw Fahmi outside Starbucks -- he was holding a frappuccino. He was looking for a seat, so I thought kagetin aaah.. and yup, I scared him from behind, haha!! Then I asked him what was he doing there, and he said he was meeting Koko so I thought oooooo-kaaayy.. is this bad timing or what? then Koko suddenly came up behind me with a cup of coffee and the three of us sat down. As much as I was surprised to see him, he probably least expected me to be there. At first I felt like I shouldn't have been there, but then they urged me to get a drink so I bought some bubble tea. After a while, Koko asked me to join them for a movie and although I didn't know what the movie was about, I said yes. Besides, it would be much more fun than staying at home. We turned out to watch Flags of Our Fathers, which is a war movie based on a true story. I don't normally like war movies, but thank God this one's got Ryan Philippe and Paul Walker in it (they're two of my favourite actors). Anyway, if I could sum up the movie in one sentence, it would be: cool at first, but boring after a while. It has a depressing ending, and strangely none of the audience made a move from their seat when the movie was over!! The three of us were like oookaaayy.. kok gak ada yg keluar?? Then I realised that most of them were oldies (kakek2 and nenek2).. hmm perhaps they're really paying tribute to the dead men in the movie.. and maybe the movie really made them feel so depressed. After hesitating for a while, we finally made a quite impolite move, which was walking out of the cinema room when everyone else wasn't moving. Afterwards, Koko and Fahmi drove me home. Man, we should've seen Borat instead! I wonder who insisted on watching Flags of Our Fathers..
4. I got a MySpace message from Deborah, my Ivory Coastern best friend whom I've known since 7th grade in Jordan who's now in the States. She's facing her finals right now, and she promised me that she'll call me once her exams are over. Man, I CANNOT wait!!

Labels: Confessions, Daily Ramblings, Friends, Movies

Yesterday afternoon I went to see The Grudge 2 with my bro, Hana, Rania, Kania, Fahmi, Gana, and a new KBRI girl called Lia. I luuuv horror movies! Although I screamed several times during the movie (that I had to remind myself to cover my mouth every time a freaky scene comes), I still think the first version of the movie is waaaaay more frightening than the second one. Unlike the first version, The Grudge 2 wasn't scary all the way from start to finish; the plot of this movie's too complicated and a lot of the scenes didn't make sense; some parts of the movie were boring and failed to engage the audience; and some of the ghastly creatures made me chuckle instead of making me squirm in my seat. Then after the movie, we went to Oriental Bay for ice cream (it was a great, fine day yesterday), then off to Tante Ena's house to accompany Fahmi (and sekalian lebaranan kesana). Afterwards, Fahmi had to take the girls home, so Gana, my bro, and I went for dinner at Hot Rocks in Lower Hutt.

At about 2pm today, Coconut m'a texto si je pourrais soigner Goddess, sa belle chatte, pour neuf semaines. Sure, I love Goddess til death, I haven't seen her for almost a year, and I'd luv to have her in my home again. En revanche, having her for 9 weeks is far too long.. and it would only make me remember him even more! D'un part, Goddess me manque, and I bet my ex is quite desperate in trying to find someone who's willing to give her a home while he's away getting married in Indonesia. Mais d'autre part, my house is too small for Goddess (she's gonna get bored if I keep her in all day long, and if I let her out I'm scared she won't come back), there's no ideal place to put her poop tray (and heck I can't imagine how stinky my tiny home will be if she ever poops inside!), I'd have to vacuum the house more frequently cos the couch and carpet would be covered in her fluffy white fur, and last but not least: il me semble que mon ex seulement profite de moi, car it's not like nous restons des bons amis apres que nous broke up, et il seulement me contacte quand il a besoin de quelque chose. It's like il me considere comme tempat titipan kucing doang while he's away on cloud nine getting married to some other woman whom I'm sure gonna have to face soon. Quelle sorte de gratitude me donnera-t-il quand il aura volve de Jakarta? Rien, nada, nothing. Il me dira muchas gracias, mais ce sera tout. Not to mention la tristeza que je devrais revivre, car avoir la belle chatte chez moi me rendrait seulement a penser a lui meme plus!
Considering all this, si je veux proteger mon bien-etre emotionnel, I realise that the best option would be to say no, but why oh why is it so hard to say so? Peut-etre it's cos I want Goddess, mais a meme temps carressing this lovely, lovable, innocent, snow-white kitty for 9 weeks would only remind me so much of my ex and in the end I'm gonna suffer emotionally encore une fois, which of course I'm trying to stay away from. Alors, I haven't told him yes; I've only said "maybe". I know it would mean so much to him if I'd say yes, but it's not like he'd be willing to manifest his appreciation towards me to a great extent, donc qu'est-ce que j'obtiendra en echange that would really make me glad for doing the favour? As I've mentioned before: nada, rien, niente. I'm not saying I want quelque chose materiel en echange. J'ai besoin seulement de that extra something, u know.. something that would make it all worthwhile.. something that would make up for the emotional suffering (ie. the inevitable reminiscence of him caused by the cat's mere physical presence) that I would have to go through if I agree to look after her.. quelque chose that wouldn't make me regret doing him the favour. Oh gosh I'm shedding a tear while typing this.. holy cow! what a stupid, sensitive freak I am.

Labels: Cats, Confessions, Movies

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face.
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away.
If only I knew what I know today...

I'm sorry for blaming you. For everything I just couldn't do. And I've hurt myself by hurting you.

Sometimes I feel broke inside but I won't admit. Sometimes I just want to hide cos it's you I miss. You know it's hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance, to look into your eyes and see you looking back.

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away. Oh it's dangerous. It's so out of line.. to try and turn back time.

Labels: Books, Lyrics, Movies