Finalement, I got my brand new contact lenses. This is the very first time I've every tried wearing them, and oh God I was struggling on trying to put them in my eyes! But then it was even harder when I tried to take them off that I almost gave up. Whew!

Yesterday I finished reading Love on the Dotted Line by David E Talbert. I don't normally like chick lits as the plot usually bores me, but I have to admit that I enjoyed reading this one. I'd give it 4 stars out of 5. It's about a broken-hearted woman who got sick of men who luv to play games on women. Anyway, this woman's a lawyer, and she became frustrated up to the point where she decided to create a "pre-prenuptial" contract that would secure her relationships with men. So she started dating a new man, and a few weeks later when things got "hot", she made him sign the contract under duress. A few months passed, and she found out that he cheated on her, so she took him to court, and that's where the excitement begins. If you want a more detailed review about this book just google it! I can't be bothered to type a lot right now.

Anyway, I'm sick of manja girls who are sooo dependent on others! It's like they'd rather not go out unless someone picks them up. Sheesh! Unlike them, I'd catch the bus, take the train, and walk through rain, thunder, and storm if I really have to!

Dah ah, lagi males blogging nih sebenernya.

Labels: Books, Daily Ramblings

Started off my day at my baby Zygote's place where she, Muti, Harridz, Nara, Dianny, Ardya, and I cooked stuffs together, played fighting games on PS2 against each other (and I lost the whole time, aargh!), hung out together, and had a great fun and relaxing time ensemble despite the rain outside. We were literally bloated with these food:

• Dianny's choco fudge cake: super duper delicious, I could genuinely say that it was the tastiest home made choco fudge I've ever eaten!
• Harridz's sushi: very deadly, especially since he failed to warn me of how strong the wasabi was, he he. Other than that, I couldn't get enough of it :)
• Nara's sweet 'n sour ... (umm, what's it called again Nar?? I forgot!): a very yummy dish, I'm impressed, I couldn't believe he really cooked this!
• My spring rolls: taking into account my laziness, I was too lazy to make my own original spring rolls, he he, so I just bought some frozen ones from the supermarket and cooked them at Yessy's house.
• Yessy's banana fritters: I like how she dusted some fine sugar on top. I've never even thought of it every time I make them myself.
• Ardya's fruit punch: how very refreshing!
  
• Muti's.. umm what did Muti make? hehe.. well, she was immersed in school books when everyone else was in the kitchen cos she had a test and assessments coming up :)
  

At about 3pm, I had to go for halal bihalal at Om Budi's house whereas everyone else stayed and rented some DVDs. Man, I'd rather stay too but it wouldn't feel right if I didn't come over to Om Budi's place, cos he and his wife along with my parents used to be partners-in-crime, and they both have helped me and my bro a lot ever since my parents left. So yeah, when I got there I was even more bloated with Mbak Wiwin's specialty: mie baksoooo! :D

Then at 7pm, my bro and I went to Gana's house for another halal bihalal. And yup you guessed it: another full session of food! Hehehe! Later at 10:30pm we decided to leave as it was already past 10pm (my bro and I are still Restricted drivers so we weren't supposed to drive after 10). My bro was changing radio stations randomly when suddenly we heard the typical Idol soundtrack on 90.0 FM... and OMG about 5 seconds later it was Dom's voice saying something like "and the winner [of this year's NZ Idol] is... MATT!!" Yay I couldn't believe we were right on time to hear who the winner is!! I don't really like Matt and Indira, but I knew Matt would win. As my brother usually says, "The fat one always wins!" (I dunno why but he's always right!! We've watched other reality TV shows and the skinnier one always gets eliminated! We always laugh about how right he is about this one! Haha!)

Then when I got home, Tash my neighbour's cat was at the doorstep. I think she wanted to go inside her home, but my bro and I lured her into our house instead (by giving her some Whiskas of course -- hehehe licik!) My bro was thinking that she could stay in our house for the night (and she could sleep with me! me me me!!) but then I didn't think it was a good idea in case her owners were worried she didn't come home. So I knocked at my neighbour's door and a guy opened it and took Tash on his arms. I went back inside my unit, but a second later I heard a "meooww" and my bro said "is it Tash??" so we went silent, only to have it confirmed by the sound of a closing door and another "meow" that followed. Then I thought aduuh kasian banget Tash-kuuu.. bego amet sih ni orang, tau gitu mending tadi gk usah gua kembaliin Tash-nya!

Labels: Fun Times

Okay, so my first day of Eid wasn't at all amusing. However, ever since the second day of Eid I started to get that Eid feeling in my heart. On Wednesday night, my bro and I were invited to tante Marlina's house for halal bihalal. We were bloated with really yummy food and an even more savoury dessert (I forgot what the food were). On Thursday night, we went to Kania's house and ate siomay, sate, soto Padang, and es cendol. Then last night we went to tante Tri's house and we were bloated with pempek and a soto/soup-like dish. For dessert, we had es teler and tante Lina made this really tasty fruit cake. I'm so thankful that these people still care about me and my brother and that they're kind of looking after us, cos otherwise they wouldn't have invited us to come over for halal bihalal at their places as it was mainly the KBRI people who were there. Oh yeah, not to mention the tons of food that they gave us for takeaway.. which means that I might not have to cook until Monday, haha Anyway, this afternoon we had halal bihalal at KBRI and the food that they served was nasi kuning. Aaah, I guess my Eid this year isn't so bad after all but I still miss my mom's sate Padang and opor ayam.

Labels: Celebrations, Fun Times

Yay, it's Eid al-Fitr today! In Indo: Minal aidin wal faizin, mohon maaf lahir dan batin yaa! When I was in Jordan, we used to say: Kul 3am wa 2antum bikheir! But in general, you can say: Eid mubarak! Heheh, banyak banget ucapannya. (BTW what did you use to say in Saudi Arabia mel?)

To tell you the truth, I wasn't very excited when I got informed last night that today's the Eid instead of tomorrow, cos I have an exam today in the afternoon so I couldn't even go for the Eid prayer at KBRI this morning. Well, actually I could, but I desperately needed the time to revise. If only, oh if only Eid were tomorrow, I'd be way happier as I'd be able to enjoy the Eid day without worrying about the exam at all. So yeah, despite Allah's blessings for the most joyful day in Islam, overall this year's Eid seems to be the gloomiest for me for the following reasons:

• The weather!! Aargh today's the worst weather this month! It was dark, raining and drizzling, and not to mention the wind that blew at about 100km/h (if I'm not wrong). Why oh why does the weather have to be like this during Eid day?
• For the first time I'm celebrating Eid without my whole family..
• .. and that means no delicious sate padang, rendang, opor ayam, and lontong sayur for this year! Mom usually cooks them every Eid.
• Oh yeah, unlike in the previous years I didn't make kue lidah kucing for this year's Eid (exams, hello!)
• Ah yes, the final exam itself. Because of it, I couldn't enjoy Eid that much. As usual, after every exam I get a tension headache and it occured again after the exam today.
• Not only did the exam restrain me from going to KBRI to pray this morning, but I also couldn't go to Fereena's Eid celebration at her house this afternoon! Hwaa!
• Hmm what else.. oh yeah, no visiting other people's houses this year, cos usually the KBRI families would invite one another to come over and EAT! Hehehe. As this year my dad no longer works at KBRI Welly, who am I to go and eat at other people's houses uninvited? :D
• Oh, but thank goodness a few minutes ago tante Marlina texted me and invited me to go to her place tomorrow night. Yaay! Delicious Eid food!! Can't wait can't wait!!

Oh yeah, speaking of my exams..

• Last Saturday on the 21st at 2:30PM in the Easterfield building room EA206 (yay I still have a perfectly fine memory), I sat my Auditing exam. It was.. umm what's the perfect word to describe it..? UNEXPECTED! I just hope that they're not gonna be tough in marking the answers.
• Today at 2:30PM in the Cotton building room CO122 (my Spanish lecture room!) I sat my COML303 exam (ie. Law of Organisations). It was Oooo-kay... I guess. Well, to be good at commercial law is being able to give out good arguments in your answers, and as a pretty vague person *sigh* I'm not good at giving clear arguments, but I did my best though. Oh, but there was one question that was 1 whole page long! I thought "crap!" so I left that one til last and unfortunately I didn't manage to finish it, boo hoo.

I'm just soooo glad that my exams are over!! MERDEKAAA!!

Oh yeah, I finally borrowed Christina Aguilera's "Back to Basics" CD from the library. I luv it, luv it, LUV it!! Especially since it's a double-disc album! Next time I'll post my own review on it ^^

Labels: Celebrations

Read the following questions, imagining the scenes in your mind, and write down the FIRST thing that you visualize. Do not think about the questions excessively. This is a relational psychology test and the answers given to the questions have been shown to have a relevance to values and ideals that we hold in our personal lives.

1. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with?
>> Coconut, my favourite ex

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
>> A cute cat

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
>> The cat stares at me deeply. I take the cat and hug it and cuddle it sweetly. Mwah!

4. You walk deeper into the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe its size.
>> Large

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
>> Yes

6. You enter the house. You walk to the dining area and see the dining room table. Describe what you see on and around the table.
>> On: lots of yummy food, lit candles, plates arranged nicely
>> Around: chairs, a calm and romantic atmosphere, artistic paintings on the wall, house plants

7. You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What material is the cup made of (ceramic, glass, paper, etc.)?
>> Plastic

8. What do you do with the cup?
>> Throw it away

9. You walk to the edge of the property, where you find yourself standing at the edge of body of water. What type of body of water is it (creek, river, ocean, etc...)
>> A flowing river with a tall waterfall at the end of it

10. How will you cross the water?
>> Walk through it as the river is only up to my thighs and I dunno how to swim anyway


Analysis (with my reactions)

1. The person who you are walking with is the most important person in your life.
--> Dammit! No way!

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems.
--> He he..

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems (passive, aggressive).
--> Yup, I do tend to deal with problems sweetly

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to resolve your problems.
--> Yeah! A huge ambition that is!

5. No fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence is more indicative of a closed personality. You'd prefer people to not drop by unannounced.
--> Yeah, I don't really like it when people just pop in to my house like that

6. If your answer did not include food, people, or flowers then you are generally unhappy.
--> Does that mean I'm just "quite" happy?

7. The durability of the material with which the cup is made is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship with the person from number 1. For example: styrofoam, plastic, and paper are disposable; styrofoam and paper are not durable; metal and glass are durable.
--> Err.. I can't believe it, it's true!

8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude toward the person in number 1.
--> Wahahaa! I'm surprised! This is so consistent with my real life situation :D

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.
--> Umm..

10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life.
--> He he

Labels: Blog Homeworks

In no particular order:

1. Design and implement a new blog layout
2. Look for a full-time job (I've been trying since months ago.. but no job offers until now)
   
3. Clean up my bedroom and the livingroom, they're a complete mess
4. Discipline myself and must make an attempt to master Fantaisie Impromptu and Ballade no.1 in G# Minor on the piano
5. Have fun! It'll be summer in no time!
6. Get some info from NZICA
7. If only I had a full license, I'd go on a road trip with friends
   
8. Annoy my brother even more
9. err.. what else??
10. Oh yeaahh!! GRADUATE from my BCA and GradDipProfAcc! (Note: I'd already completed my BCA with 2 majors last February)

Anyway, I checked my VUW student email this morning and I was soooo relieved that my Auditing lecturer had changed my workshop participation mark from 0% to 5% (you could either get 0% or 5% for this, and for a hard subject like Auditing, a 5% can make a huge difference between a pass and a fail!) Thank God he said there were some admin mistakes and that my mark should've been 5% in the first place anyway. I hope he changed Kenny's too, cos Kenny told me that he wouldn't change his mark.

I also checked MySpace a few minutes ago and Adam has sent me a pic of me and the girls in 7th grade. How embarrassing. I told him to send it to my email instead!

Labels: Daily Ramblings

You know what, I'm quite bored of my blog layout already! I might make a new one once my exams are over. Speaking of exams, I'm in my study week right now, and on Saturday I'll have my first exam, which is Auditing (ACCY303)! Then on Wednesday next week I'll sit my Law of Organisations (COML303) exam. Wish me luck you guys!

I have a thing for headbands since recently. A few days ago I bought a new one from Equip. I wanted to buy more but the thing is they're either too plastic, too plain, too ordinary, or too big! Not only that, but they sell the same styles in every store! When it comes to accessories and jewellery, it's way better in Jordan cos they have heaps and heaps of different styles in every shop. Unlike in NZ, they sell a lot of varieties of accessories instead of just those that are "in" at the moment

Alrighty, I guess I gotta "force" myself to start studying again.. I still have lotsa topics to revise *sigh*

Dear blog,

I hereby declare my vow to never have my hair cut by Asian hairdressers, ever again.

Signed,
The Lioness


Yesterday I went to the Korean salon to get my hair cut into the style in the pic above. I was certain that they could cut my hair like that, despite the fringe that I already have.
Nonetheless...

Damn you Asian hairdressers!! You're all the same. Regardless of whether I go to Adrian's or the Korean salon, you thin down my hair --either with clippers or razors-- until I look like a lost Chinese girl. You cut my thick and coarse hair the same way that you'd cut those typical-poker-straight-Chinese-and-Japanese-girls' hair.

I find, however, that my last haircut at Adrian's was a gazillion times better than the haircut that I had yesterday afternoon at the Korean salon. Despite having my hair thinned too much until I entered the oh-lookie-Dessy's-become-a-victim-of-Adrian's-again state, at least my hair at Adrian's was cut into a particular style, and that it actually looked nice when I straightened my hair. Yesterday's haircut at the Korean salon, however, was plain odd and weird and ugly! My hair has no style or shape at all now.

When I got home, I analysed my hair in front of the mirror: It looked alright from the front. From the sides, I thought "what the hell did she do to my hair???" cos the sides were quite feathery and hideous; it didn't resemble the above pic at all! From the back, I thought "OMG!! Why in the world would she layer my hair like that??" I almost cried and became very moody seeing my hair like this, cos it still looked odd and shapeless even after I straightened it last night!! Oh well, at least I can still tie my hair.. *sobs*

Aaarrgh! GO n ROT in HELL you Asian hairdressers!! You must educate yourselves more, GODDAMMIT!!

P.S: sorry for being rude in this posting, but I'm not fasting today so it doesn't matter. Moreover, this is MY blog so I have the right to write mean things here here :)

Labels: Daily Ramblings

APAKAH KAMU
1. Iri hati pada orang lain:
:: Jarang

2. Kamu mengandalkan 'beauty' or 'personality':
:: Personality sama internal beauty

3. Punya SIM? :
:: Yup

4. Takut kehilangan 'uang' atau 'teman'?:
:: Teman

5. Berkacamata?:
:: Iya

6. Suka anak kecil :
:: Sukanya kalo dianya mau ama gua, kalo ngga malah ilfeel

PERNAHKAH KAMU
7. Berpikir tuk operasi plastik:
:: Gak tuh

8. Memotong sendiri rambutmu?:
:: Pernah, bangs n ujung2 rambut yang tajam2 gk jelas

9. Jatuh cinta pada pandangan pertama:
:: Nope, n there's no such thing!

10. Berpikir untuk mengadopsi anak:
:: Pengennya punya anak kandung sendiri

11. Pacaran ama orang yang jauuuuh lebih tua :
:: Pernah (-_-)' .. only to realise that he's the biggest jerk I've ever met who loves to exploit women and manipulate their hearts. I fell for the latter (uhuhu sedihnya daku..) but thank God not the former.

12. Cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan?:
:: Siapa sih yg ga pernah?

13. Kehilangan dompet?:
:: Ga pernah, n jangan sampe deh

KUSUKA
14. Nonton berita?:
:: Iya kalo lagi seru aja

15. Pelajaran di sekolah:
:: Pas high school >> French, accounting, matematika, computer studies

16. Tipe cowok/cewek:
:: Terlalu panjang kalo disebutin di sini

17. Menu sarapan:
:: Sereal, hash brown, roti, mie goreng, mie kuah, apa aja yg ada di dapur

18. Orang yang sedang kusuka:
:: Ga ada, makanya lg boring nih hidup gua haha

19. Penampilan lawan jenis yang kamu sangat suka ngeliatnya:
:: Rapi tp cool n edgy

20. Band:
:: Linkin Park, Evanescence, Muse, My Chemical Romance, System of a Down, dll

21. Tempat:
:: Pengen deh ke Paris, Hawaii, Sydney, LA, New York, n last but not least London!

22. Baca koran:
:: Jarang banget, abis gede gitu sih n bikin berantakan aja, mendingan dari internet sekalian

23. Resto fast food:
:: Burger Fuel, Subway

24. TV Station:
:: TV2, TV3, C4

25. Nama untuk anak laki-laki:
:: belom kepikiran.. haha.. let my man decide

26. Nama untuk anak perempuan:
:: Luvitta - ciptaan sendiri
:: Aimee - French, artinya "loved"
:: Cherie - French juga, artinya "sweetheart"
:: Leia - dari Star Wars nih, "Princess Leia" hehe.. gua suka namanya
:: Elshazia - ciptaan sendiri
:: Awas kalo ikut2an!! hehe

HAL PERTAMA YANG TERLINTAS DIBENAKMU SAAT MENDENGAR
27. Koper:
:: Pengen deh pergi jauh dari Wellington. I don't think I have any use being here anymore.. sometimes I think it's best if I just get away from the bad memories here.

28. Sekolah:
:: Hmm.. langsung inget SDI, AHSS, SLTP 8 Depok, SMU 99 Jakarta, Onslow College

29. Sapi:
:: Aduuh kenapa mesti sapi?? Jadi inget pas waktu itu lg family road trip ke Auckland n di pinggir jalan ada sapi lg make luv in public, eeeww get a room!! haha!

30. Rizky Hanggono:
:: Aye ga kenal

NGELEMPAR PR BUAT SIAPA?
1. Amellie
2. Michie
3. Nara
4. Siapa aja yg mao ngerjain PR ini silakan yaw

Labels: Blog Homeworks, Fun Times

I hate myself! I hate myself! I truly hate myself!! How could I be so stupid?? Aaarrgghh!! I've blown my chances away!! Aaarrgh! I hate Spanish! (lho kok jadi Spanish??) Well, speaking of Spanish (SPAN112), I screwed up in my oral exam today. The exam (it's more of a test actually) consisted of two parts: reading and conversation. I excelled in the reading bits, but then when the lecturers asked me questions, I kinda froze cos the questions that they asked me were completely different to what I'd expected! I couldn't even speak fluently at all; it's like it was so hard to get the correct Spanish words out of my mouth! Moreover, I was supposed to have the exam at 3pm, but then at 2:50pm they already called my name! I hadn't got the chance to get myself together when they did, cos I just came out of the toilet beforehand! I was planning to do a bit of revision for 10 minutes before going to the oral exam room, but thanks to the early call I didn't even have the chance to do so!

Anyway, on Friday I have another oral exam, but this time it's for French (FREN123). Even though the French and Spanish courses that I'm doing are both at an elementary level (the one that you need to do before going to the 200-level courses), FREN123 is like 10 times harder than SPAN112!! In spite of that, I still love French a million times better than Spanish, he he

Oh by the way, on my way back home I saw Rosita (last year's NZ Idol winner) on the same bus as me!! At first when I saw her I thought "I think I've seen her before.. but who is she??" then I realised that it's Rosita!! I wonder what she's doing these days. NZ Idol's not a huge phenomenon at all here, unlike in Indonesia and America. There's no more news about Ben Lummis (NZ Idol's first season winner) after he released his 2nd single. Worse than that, I've never even seen or heard Rosita's single on TV and on the radio right after she won! So I reckon that you can't really become a recording artist if you just win NZ Idol. Now I'm thinking that NZ Idol's merely a sham. To put it more positively: a one-off popularity contest.

Labels: Daily Ramblings

• My Spanish final test today turned out to be harder than I expected! I hope I did well.
• I finally bought the Supre skirt that I wanted, regardless of the fact that I didn't succeed in getting the job offer from IRD :p
• I finally got the sheetmusic of Christina Aguilera's latest single titled "Hurt" from Pianofiles. Unsurprisingly, the piano bits are easy to play. Surprisingly though, this song suits my vocal range! Yay!! A Christina song that I can finally sing! I might record myself singing it one day (narcissism rules!)
  
• When I left my house this morning, I saw a DEAD bird in front of my doorsteps. I was so disgusted by it! Who the hell had the guts to do that?! It must be one of my neighbours, but which one?? When I returned home, it was still there! My brother was actually stupid enough to not see that there was a dead bird there. I just hope he hadn't stepped on it. Anyway, I didn't know what to do about it cos I didn't wanna touch it! Ew! A few seconds later, I guiltily swept the poor dead birdie away with an old broom. If anybody ever repeats this kinda thing, I'll place the dead creature in one of my neighbour's mailbox. How's that?
• Last but not least, il en a decouvri.. finalement. Je suis vraiment desolee, mais je n'ai aucun choix.

Labels: Daily Ramblings

Normally I don't remember my dreams as soon as I wake up, but last night's dream was so weird and hilarious that I can still remember it until now. I dreamt that we were all fish creatures who live under the sea, except for the fact that we had human head, as well as human arms and legs. Oh yeah, I remember we were walking on the sea bed instead of swimming like a real fish, yet we called ourselves a fish. Anyway, the weirdest part was that I dreamt about Edwin (the "guitarist" Edwin, not the KBRI one) and Rania (Hana's sister). I dreamt that Edwin had a huuuge crush on Rania, lol. He was chasing after her the whole time until she accepted him to be her boyfriend. Rania, however, didn't love Edwin as much as he did, and eventually she cheated on him with another guy whom she had a crush on for ages (but I didn't recognise who that guy was). Edwin was devastated when he heard about the rumour. He and the other guy almost found out about Rania's affair with one another, but luckily they didn't cos I worked hard in trying to hide her secret affairs and preventing the guys from bumping into one another. The dream didn't reach to a dramatic ending, cos suddenly my brother woke me up for "sahur". Oh yea, thanks to that dream, I couldn't even wake up although my bro said that my noisy alarm had been on for like an hour and a half before he finally decided to wake me up (uuh kebo banget ya gua! alarm apapun udah gk mempan deh pokoknya!)

Now I'm thinking why did I ever dream about those two? I'm not even that close with them. I don't think Edwin or Rania ever reads my blog, so Mich and Nar please don't tell them about this blog entry, lol

Anyway, I've just heard in the news that 16-year-old Oscar nominated Keisha Castle Hughes is pregnant! My God, she has a bright career in front of her and she's throwing it away by having her first child when she's only 16?! (Btw 16 is the legal age in NZ in which you can have consensual sex). Maaan, what was she thinking??

Labels: Daily Ramblings

Ce que j'ecris dans ce "blog entry" peut etre plein de billevesee, mais tolere-le s'il te plait, car je ne veux que m'exprimer. Tout d'abord, je ne veux que dire que mon ancien tache m'a dit salut a MSN (il etait agreable, amical et tout ca), malgre que je l'aie deja supprime de mon MSN, Friendster, et aussi de mon portable. Je crois qu'il ne sait pas que j'ai fait tout ca. J'ai du le fait pour l'oublier, et d'un part j'ai envie de l'oublier, le laisser tranquille, et l'effacer de mon vie. Il doit en etre ainsi car chaque fois que j'entends parler de lui, toutes les memoires que nous avions se retourneraient, et c'est trop douloureux pour moi puisque je ne pourrai jamais l'oublier completement jusqu'au temps que j'aurai trouve quelqu'un nouveau pour l'emplacer.

Cependant, d'autre part je veux que nous restons des amies pour toujours. Je ne veux pas le perdre. Au plus profond de mon coeur il me manque, mais je au meme temps je ne le veux plus. Eh bien, cette situation est plutot dure pour moi, surtout car il se mariera bientot. Mais il n'y a rien que je peux faire. Maintenant je seulement suis le mouvement, et j'suis sure que dans l'avenir proche, je rencontrerai quelqu'un vraiment precieux, aimant et attentionne qui sait comment traiter une lionne comme moi

Labels: Confessions, Gemma Ward

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face.
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away.
If only I knew what I know today...

I'm sorry for blaming you. For everything I just couldn't do. And I've hurt myself by hurting you.

Sometimes I feel broke inside but I won't admit. Sometimes I just want to hide cos it's you I miss. You know it's hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance, to look into your eyes and see you looking back.

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away. Oh it's dangerous. It's so out of line.. to try and turn back time.

Labels: Books, Lyrics, Movies

Amongst a sea of 300 people in my Commercial Law lecture, I finally met Putri again. Putri is a Kiwi-Indonesian girl I met a few months ago at the KPMG assessment day. When I first met her, she sat right next to me and started to chat me up. My first impression of her was that she's really nice, friendly, sophisticated, and pretty with her long, dark brown hair and tanned skin (but now it's not tanned anymore, lol). A while later she asked me where I was from. When I told her that I came from Indonesia, she said "me too!!" and I looked at her and thought "huh??" I mean, she didn't look Indonesian at all!! She looked 100% western! So I asked "are you half Indonesian?" and she said "yes, my name's Putri." So I thought "whoa!! This girl's got an Indonesian name!!" Oh yeah, she actually speaks Indonesian quite well, which really surprised me cos I have some friends who are pure Indonesian but can't even speak the language at all. Speaking of Kiwi-Indonesian friends, I also know a guy called Maurice who's Kiwi-indo AND speaks Indonesian too. He lives in Christchurch but I met up with him and his sister when I was in Jakarta in June. Anyway, I can't believe Putri's actually in the same class as me now. We should probably hang out after the exams are over.

Hey guess what, last night I didn't manage to do my assignment at all. I was so sleepy and tired that I didn't even wake up for "sahur". So today I asked for an extension from my lecturer, and she just gave me one without even asking me what my reasons are. Great! No more stressful assignments for the rest of the day! Tonight I can just focus on studying for my French and Spanish tests tomorrow! Yippie!

Anyway, this afternoon I got a phonecall saying that the IRD Investigations people decided not to offer me the job. Boo hoo. I'm disappointed of course, but I already expected this so I just shrugged the news off.

Oh yeah, an email made my day just a few moments after the IRD phonecall. I'm not sure if "he" really sent it to me on purpose and meant it, or whether he only sent it to me by accident. I do hope it's the former.

I have just come home from breaking the fast with Yessy, Harridz, Ardya, and Nara at Miyabi. As usual, I ordered my favourite Teriyaki Chicken Set, and right now I'm sooo stuffed! I'm feeling quite sleepy too, but noooo I CANNOT sleep! I have a Commercial Law assignment due on Wednesday. I also have a French essay writing test AND a Spanish listening test on the same day *sigh*.. I'm probably not gonna sleep again tonight (aaargh! It's only gonna worsen my skin condition, but I have no choice). I'll have to finish my assignment before "sahur" tomorrow, so that afterwards I'll be able to focus on studying for my tests.

• By the way, before going to class today, I bought a new pair of slouch boots as they were on sale. They're not designer brand or anything, but I love 'em cos they're really cheap and comfy!

• Hmm. I still haven't received any news from IRD. See? They've rejected me.
  

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